Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Pure Imagination

Good Morning,

It was an awesome first week of boot-camp. I must admit i am really happy to have many friends doing the boot camp with me. It makes me more competitive than i already am. This morning our workout consisted of the following. When we come in, in the morning there is a white board that Nathan writes on, the first set is normally our warm up, the middle is our stretching and the third the actual workout. This is what is normally looks like
 WARM UP
10 AIR SQUATS
10 PUSH-UPS
10 SIT-UPS
400 METER RUN
FLUTTER KICKS(i call them dixie darling kicks) ..TO NATHAN..THEN JOG IT OUT UNTIL THE END
HIGH KNEES TO NATHAN ..THEN JOG IT OUT UNTIL THE END
PRISONER SQUATS TO NATHAN THEN JOG IT OUT UNTIL THE END
TWISTER KICK THINGS...TO NATHAN THEN JOG IT OUT UNTIL THE END

STRETCHING
MOUNTAIN CLIMBER
PEACOCK STRETCHING ( I DONT KNOW WHAT WE CALL IT)
STAND UP STRETCHING
QUAD STRETCHING

PLANK SERIES
FRONT 45 SEC
LEFT 30 SEC
RIGHT 30 SEC
FRONT 1 MIN

WORK OUT OF THE DAY (WOD)
200 METER RUN
20 LUNGES
20 PUSH-UPS
20 SIT-UPS
20 KETTLE BELL SWINGS
THE WOD IS DONE TIMES 3

Im going to try harder and make sure to list the workouts better so yall can understand what pain we go through. This mornings workout was a team work out. As you all know i hate to lose. Even-though my team was last we all are winners (que the violin music, roll credits). My team mates this morning were B. Harmon and Nicole. Nicole was our leader, i know right! Whoever came back first from the 200 meter run was the leader, the little Mexican beat me so she was the leader. I was very proud of her, she did an amazing job and got her stuff done. I'm also very proud of B. Harmon. Many people cant understand B. Harmon because she is a different kind of person. we often say we are alike in many ways and we are. One thing we cant stand is to let someone else have control over us. Its probably one of the hardest things for me to do is let someone else control what im doing. This morning she was tested and passed the test with flying colors. She claims she could not do kettle bell swings, but that bitch did them. She started to get pink in the face, which was my que to step in. I saw her getting angry, and she was 10 seconds away from getting in her car and driving off. The thing about versus is we don't allow any negative talking and the word CANT is never used. She kept saying i cant, and i knew if she kept saying it everybody was going to have to do 10 burpees and we probably would have killed her in the end. She pushed through with encouragement  from Nathan and she did them 30 in total. Brittany im so proud of you. Often times in life we let things conquer us, and they are not supposed to. I almost cried watching her do them because it brought back painful memories from childhood, and i saw little Matthew in her eyes.She was imagining one of the kettle bells swinging over and hitting her. Im sure she never imagined that she could do it, but ole girl did, i cant say it enough how proud i am of her.  My whole life i let food conquer me and control me, it had such a  heavy grasp on my life. Now i know how to conquer it. Im at a point where im so encouraged and so pumped about this working out thing. I have this black blazer hanging on the wall to remind me that all things are possible. I will get into this blazer and i will be wearing it at Melissa's wedding. Ill probably pass out from the heat since its on the beach, but ill have it on with pride. You are in control of your life, what ever you want to do you can do it. When you are in a world of pure imagination the possibilities  are endless. Often times i look at mens magazines and i see all these skinny men in these nice clothes that i want to be wearing. i sit back and i imagine myself in them, and that pushes me forward every morning. I have never been able to walk into a store and just pick out clothes, i always had to go allllllll the way to the back. in the back is the big and tall section, or husky..lol. My goal is to walk into a store and pick out a 2x shirt and be able to wear it. I know it will happen, it gonna be next week, but i can already imagine it.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

I don't have a catchy Title Today.

Good Morning,

It feels great to be back at versus. I must admit that i did not want to go back, because i just did not feel like doing all that crap again. I enjoyed my two weeks off but quickly started to feel sluggish. I didnt feel skinny. How can a 377.6llb man feel skinny? Well I did, and now im back on track. This mornings workout was just a test to see what we could do. We did a 400 meter run, 40 squats, 30 situps, 20 push-ups, and 10 kick backs for 12 min. I only made it one round. But so did everybody else, except for Travis, and the Benz crew. Ill explain. In the boot camp there is a whole new set of people, i miss the OGM's. Hopefully they will return! So my new boot campers are Travis, the guy who owns smoothie king, and has this weird obsession with Toyota. I've known him for close to 10 years. I used to work at Domino's Pizza, and smoothie king was across the parking lot and he would always come in and buy diet cokes. This is how i  met Steve too when he was working there, and all the ladies at domino's loved to watch him get out of his truck. Then we have the Benz girls. They are college aged, i didn't take the time to learn their names because i was missing the OGM's. I call them benz girls cause they drove off in a Benz, and when they passed me i was like .."These bitches!" And last but not least we have the cigegarate (spell check wont spell it for me), vodka, gravy cheese fries cocktails, and servers from Crescent City. I must admit when they first told me they were doing the boot camp, i was not happy. As we all know im a territorial person and i felt like they were trying to come into my territory.  But who the hell am i, to get upset because someone wants to change their life. I quickly changed my attitude, it took a couple of days, but im so excited to have them along on the journey. Sara, Brittany, Amy and Nicole. I work with these ladies everyday, so it was nice to see them working out. I will say that it was CCG who was behind on the work out. As we were doing our kick backs, we all had this look on our face like Fuck this! But im really happy to have them, its going to be very competitive. Im sure me and Brittany will have some issues because we are just a like in some ways. Hopefully if she is gonna have any anxiety attacks she will give me a wink so i can start one and we can just leave the gym and go to Sams. I just love Sam's. Sara and Amy are gonna go to the tanning bed so we don't have to were sun shades at 6 am in the morning . Im pretty sure by the end of week there I will have either killed Nicole, or she will have killed me, or we will end up at  Velveeta factory and just say screw it. This is gonna be a fun bootcamp. Im happy to see people changing and growing. I wanna thank my friend Sensation for being so encouraging. She always has some uplifting thing to say to me, and it really helps. I am prepared for the next chapter of bootcamp. Ive got loads of brocolli waiting to be boiled, and grapefruit by the pound.  My only issue is drinking. I love diet soda now but its not good for you. Water is so boring though..uhhh. If it only have flavor. But crystal light does have some new flavors so every week will be a new adventure. I will be also going to the farmers market on Thursday so i can make some veggie soup. I know the next 8 weeks will be rough, but i have many goals in mind, and it is an awesome feeling when you see results. Im just pumped and ready to do this. lets knock this shit out!

Monday, March 12, 2012

Who Tells you the Truth?

Good Morning,

Its been a long time, i shouldn't have left you, without a dope beat to step to..step to..step..to..LOL. IM BACK BABY! It has been a while since i have blogged. The boot camp at Versus ended about a week ago. I had a total weight loss of 27.4 pounds. I have never felt this way in my life it is an awesome feeling to sit here and feel healthy and looking so darn good. All of the compliments, and encouragement keep me going. On our last workout, i remember driving to the gym with this feeling of calmness. I knew that this was going to be the last time i had to do a burpee! On the last workout the OGMS, and myself gave it our all. We left that building feeling accomplished and ready to conquer the world. In life sometimes there are some things we just dont wanna do, its not that we cant do them, we just dont want to. Ive come to the conclusion that i just dont want to workout anymore..I just dont wanna do it. BUT, i know i have to. I tried to come up with my own workout plan of what i wanted to do. I aint done shit. I went swimming one time, and then my swim coach never showed up at the pool again. LOL. I have thought this over and over again. I hate walking into versus because i know whats going to happen, i hate it with a passion. When i leave on the other hand i feel amazing and so much better. I wanted to start a new chapter in my life, and i think i am. That new chapter is continuing to challenge myself, and to push forward. With that being said ill be returning to Versus next week, for the boot camp. I hate to admit when im worng, or having to go back on my words. Many people in my life told me i would return, and in the words of our beloved Whitney i said " Oh Hell no". I have two goals in mind. The first Im running that mile, my knee wouldn;t let me do it last time, but i could care less about that knee, im running that mile. My second goal is 350 llbs. Right now i have to weigh myself on a digital scale, i feel like a truck being weighed at a weigh station on the highway. I want to be able to get on the scale at the gym, the ones the doctors used when i was little. My friend Melissa is getting married in 8 weeks too, so i will have the chance to lose some weight before her wedding and enjoy a beach weekend. Im ready to do this all over again, its nice be back on a schedule. I do think with my diet im going to try to incorporate some new lunch ideas, and things to eat for dinner.  Im going to weigh on Friday mornings, and my new cheat day will be Sunday. So if you see me eating on Sunday im gonna eat whatever i want to, so dont be tripping. It seems like i have it all figured out we will see what happens. Oprah always asks the one question to everyone she interviews. Her question is always " Who tells you the Truth?" Its hard to find people who will actually tell you the truth. People are afraid of the truth it scares them. Peoples feeling get hurt when they hear the truth. No matter how big and bad you are when you hear the truth, it hurts. I have heard the truth. My mom always tells me the truth, never holds back, she may slowly walk into it, and guide you to it, but she is going to tell me the truth. I had a conversation with her on the last day of boot camp. I called her and i said " Mama guess how much weight i lost?" She started to calculate, and i can just picture her sitting in her breakfast nook, using her fingers, and looking towards the sky in the way she does. Her guess was wrong but she said the most powerful words to me. she said " Well i need to see you before you start eating again" that was her way of telling me the truth LOL. she cracks me up. When i was little i would always get into trouble, i got into more trouble because i was a horrible liar, still am, LOL. But she could see right through me, she said when i would lie, i would always tilt my head as if i was thinking, are they believing this. lol. I have heard the truth from so many people, and i want to thank them. Im ready to start this journey back again. My suggestion is that you surround yourself with people who will tell you the truth. You will find those people with this simple action. If you ask them a question, and their answer makes you silent for a split second, thats the truth.