Just bloggin'

Good Evening,

I know that i have not blogged in about 27 days. I feel bad, i have let my followers down. I've been going through so much that last 27 days i cant even begin to explain. I have so much going on in my life, so many things that i have committed to, but i have not committed to myself. At one point along this journey i was so focused and determined that nothing could get me down. I soon let food starts its horrible take over in my life. it all started with my cheating on Sundays. i really feel like it has destroyed this boot camp, its nobody's fault but my own. I really thought it would work out but its not. My goal for this boot camp was to lose 40 pounds and unless i chop off my right leg that is not going to happen in the next two weeks. I cant believe all i have is two weeks left. I have missed twice so far, but that is still one week. I just get tired of waking up and driving over there, half of this process is eating and exercising, the other half is attitude. if you have a bad attitude you will never complete anything in life. I will still be wearing that blazer at Melissa wedding though, so with two weeks left full speed ahead. I recently watched the Steve Harvey movie " Act like a woman, think like a man" it has be asking myself so many questions. If i want to be in a committed relationship with anyone i have got to get myself together. I have to lose this weight. I will in due time. I know what i need to do, i just have to do it. I have got to push, and push it until i get it right. Im ready and willing to do whatever i have to to make things work, and i will. Tired of being alone, tired of being fat...onward and upward here we go again.