Forrest Gump

Good Afternoon,

Alright everybody we have hit a bump in the road. I have been working out so much, and trying to run this mile that i have slightly injured my knee. I went to the emergency room last night, my leg and knee were swollen. I was hoping the Dr. would say there was fluid around my knee or something extreme like that, but no fluid nothing extreme. I have been working my body in overtime and i needed some rest. I'm laying here in bed bored out of my mind with my leg elevated on ice. It has been the most boring morning of my life. All I can think about is working out. I missed my boot camp work out this morning, and its strange that I was so upset about it. I want to lose this weight so bad but i have to go about it the right way. Yesterday i got up early and went to the Payne Center. I wanted to start working on the mile run really hard. I have 18 days to get to this mile. When i get there i ask the little guy how many times around the track is a mile, he tells me 8. I still think he is wrong for some reason but i started stretching and running. As i was running two very emotional things happened. The first i was listening to Marvin Sap's song "More than a Conqueror", while running. I felt inspired because ive learned that you have to stay positive in anything that you set out to do. I want to lose so much weight, and i have so many things i want to do when i do, but it all takes time. I do know that i am more than a conqueror through him who loves me. I will accomplish this goal, it may take two years but ill do it. Having this knee injury is just a little road block but it wont stop me. Second i got emotional running thinking about Forrest Gump. I have watched this movie a 1,000 times and i can quote it from beginning to end. As im running im thinking about the scene when Forrest is a little boy, and the kids are making fun of him and throwing rocks. i started gaining weight around the 3rd grade, and kids always made fun of me for it. Luckily I had a powerful tongue, and could easily embarrass the shit out of them, but as i grew older the pain was masked. I remember this scene because Forrest had these braces on his legs, and he couldn't walk well. They didn't even want him sitting on the bus next to them, except for Jenny. When they started throwing the rocks jenny helped him up and told him to run. When he started running the braces started falling apart and were loosened from his legs. The braces falling from his legs is so symbolic for me. I have dealt with this weight for so long, and as i continue to run i can see the braces falling off. i can see the pain being loosened, and the joy being tightened. I imagine what Forrest was thinking as he was running for his life, he was scared, and not sure where to go. i do know one thing he always had jenny right there beside him. Im so thankful that i have so many jenny's by my side. Constantly encouraging me to run, and run faster. this journey has taken to a mental place that i thought i woudl never be at. A place of peace, confidence, and happiness. Normally around my birthday i get a little depressed, beacause i see all of my other friends success at this age. This year is a little different, im running, im like Forrest, and i wont stop until i get there. I don't know where "there" is but i know that's where im running. Thank you guys for being my Jenny and im so proud to be your Forrest.