WOW!

Good Afternoon Everyone,

Im sitting here in my office and all i can say is wow! It was a pretty intense morning to say the least. I pushed myself further than i have ever been pushed. At one point during the workout i was like " I AM NOT DOING ALL THIS SHIT, IM GONNA STOP AT ROUND 6, PRETEND TO THROW UP, AND TAKE MY ASS HOME" I had already given up on myself, but i remembered all the people who are following me and didn't want to let yall down. So if you see me around and im moving slow blame yourselves. LOL . I start with the warm-up. Today's warm up was 25 jumping jacks, 5 push-up, 10 sit-ups,5 jumping squats, and 5 groiners (bur pee's little cousin), Three times. I know what you are thinking, that is a work out in its self. After I almost died from the warm up, we moved into our WOD. The WOD was Burpees, sit-ups, and weight squats. Weight squats are squats with 10llb dumbbells that you have. When you squat, as you thrust  up, you use the momentum to raise the dumbbells and repeat. We did all that in what i call the COUNTDOWN FROM HELL. We did 10 each, then 9, then 8, then 7, then 6, then 5, then 4, then 3, then 2, then 1. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Around round 6, i was determined to give up, my legs were buckling, i had been passing gas for the last ten minutes, and i was right out tired. I never would have imagined that i would be able to finish this workout. As i lay there on the floor in a pool of my own sweat, i knew i had to finish if not for myself but for my followers. The whole time im thinking what the hell have i gotten myself into. Why didnt i try to play the piano, or learn a new language, there is nothing like a Fat, Bilingual, Pianist, its a classic look. I didnt learn the piano, beacuse it was not going to change my life. I wanted a lifestyle change and thats what ive got. I pushed on through and made it to the end. I will never forget this day, this was the day that i stopped using excuses. Everybody has an excuse as to why they cant and won't do something. If you stop using those excuses and just get the shit done, you will feel 100 percent better. I could have easily got up, and left and there was nobody there to stop me. Sometimes you just have to encourage yourself and keep going. In the Black church we sing a song " Lord, im running, trying to make a 100, 99 and half wont do, Lord im running, trying to make a 100, 99 and half wont do". That song got me through this work-out this morning. I was not gonna be happy if i stopped at round 6, i had to keep going. When i got to round 1, i wanted to start crying because i had finally completed something that challenged me, i had overcome an obstacle and made it my bitch. For years i had given up on so many things. I wanted to have a Masters degree by now, I wanted to have a huge house in the hills, i wanted to be a senator and educator, i was gonna be a star. I let small little challenges stop me from completing my dreams. Today i got confirmation from myself that I can do all things. My whole life i have been going to church and hearing " I can do all things, through Christ that strengthens me," I never really understood the meaning until this morning. I had to ask for help this morning. I was laying there thinking i cant do this, Lord help me. I know what you are saying, I cuss, I drink, Im gay, im not the  friendliest person you know, but i know when to ask for his help. I swear to GOD like a mighty flowing wind, he gave me a much need push. I hate to go all CHURCHY on yall, but im giving real emotion. At the end of the work out, i stood there amazed, that i did this and all i could say was WOW! I stepped outside the Gym, rain pouring, my legs, back and butt riddled with pain, and thought to myself WOW!